I am a 27 year old living in my parents tiny house that I grew up in, no car (I do have my liscense though, so woohoo for that, at the green age of 25 I parallel parked, did some other crazy maneuvers and only knocked down 2 orange cones! on a side note are there others out there who think driving is scary? Snakes, cockroaches, traveling to distant countries no problem but getting behind the wheel of a very heavy machine ). Where was I? no car, no money, in a complete rut with my biggest excitement being what tv series are going to be added to netflix (Imagine my excitement when Monk, Psych and Thirty Rock were added in one week! One week!). I have my Masters and am a certified elementary teacher but terrified of teaching (it's a toss-up between driving and teaching), interviewing and having a real job. I always thought I could do great things and be super successful (I was even most likely to succeed in high school, ha) but lately I have been paralyzed into inaction. I work for my dad selling collectibles on ebay and we do not seem to be very good at it, eeking out very low salaries (think I would have more money on welfare, don't worry NOT going on welfare!!) and subbing for my mom's kindergarten class when she goes with my dad to the doctors (another side note if anyone knows about brachial plexitus and has healing ideas, let me know!) She only has 10 kids and they are half the size of me but what a job! I am not very good at it, but they are funny (my favorite thing that happened the other day was after making towers out of marshmallows and spagetti, we had quite a mess. Two kindergartners willing to help, started cleaning up leftover spagetti pieces. While tending to another fire somewhere else in the room, I heard an outcry. One little boy was very upset with the cleaner who had taken apart his structure by eating the marshmallows, The cleaner, mouth full of sticky treats, was apologizing by saying "sorry" and shrugging his shoulders "but we had to clean up the table"). I check Craigslist often looking for a high paid tutoring job (which I really would be very good at) or short term stints (I did apply to be a blogger educator on a core drilling ship but have yet to be called back, blast! perhaps my previous blog attempts did not have the stuff they were looking for, but when I reread it, I thought it was hilarious. But other than that I have been living a life of mediocrity.
One day in the attic when I was in the attic of my parents house searching through boxes tryng to find items worth $9.99 to put on ebay, I decided I was so frusterated and sick of where I am at in life. I began listening to and reading all sorts of self help books and many have a common theme:
Positive thinking
Do what you love and know what areas you have strength in
Nothing is impossible, think about it, visualize it and you can be great
So...
here starts the story of how I won the Chicago Marathon and became a contestant on the Amazing Race and became an awesome driver and...
either a humorous story of a delusional women or an inspirational tale of an average girl overcoming all obstacles and a huge endorsement for Tony Robbins and The Secret. I hope I can say go out and buy the books and start dreaming and visualizing! oh boy do I hope!! Right now I think the blog is going to tell of my successes and failures in training as well as my quest to happiness in life, job, relationships... There will be humorous anecdotes (at least to me and know what ?even if I am the only one laughing at them, that is still something isn't it?), Seinfeld quotes galore, pictures, lots of mispellings and paragraphs that are way too long...
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. ~Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles," 1992 (commonly misattributed to Nelson Mandela, 1994 inauguration speech)
Are there others out there living a life of mediocrity, unhappy with how their life turned out? C'mon and do this with me! C'mon!!!!
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